Don't Take Advantage...

You know that cliche where you are suppose to take life by the horn, and live each day as if it is your last, and to not take advantage of the people that surround you?  Here's the thing folks, we had a really big scare last week in my family.  My dad had a stroke scare, and well it was a scary and not very appealing to me.  Well I guess it's not appealing to anyone.  However, I guess this is where the cliche comes in.  If you don't talk to your parents or you're not in any way in contact with someone you love.  Forgive and forget, hug your parents, do all that crazy stuff, cause life is way too short.  If not, you're going to truly regret it, and it'll be quite devastating.

So with that in mind, been trying to make healthy meals for our family.  Deciding on spaghetti squash and chicken.  So with that, here we are.  Living life, and trying to make sure the fam stays healthy.  With that in mind, recipes would be good, and finding it is coming along swimmingly.

So it's short tonight, and I don't know.  I'm just watching over my father this week, and I don't know what else to say really.  Live life people, and don't leave it with any regrets.  Love the ones you care.  Cause it can all disappear in an instance.

Night y'all!

New Blogger Interface

Uhhh...what is it with everyone changing everything?  Now don't get me wrong.  I love change and all, but I hate when it comes to learning a new thing on Facebook or a new thing on this thingamabob...it's just confusing me. So yeah...that's my complaint, and what grinds my gear tonight.  Hahaha...no no I'm not doing a Grind My Gears column tonight.

Tonight, lets reflect on the things that make us scratch our heads.  Now, not that I've been contemplating suicide or anything.  However I have been listening to a podcast while at work with the topic of suicide.  I don't know what it is, I'm deathly afraid of dying.  I think a majority of us are.  So have you ever wonder what it would be like to take your own life?  There are so many ways to go, and I don't know, they all seem pretty grisly to me.  I don't think I would ever do it.  Okay, I'm done with this somber topic.

So I guess I'm all over the place right now.  I got all this energy, and I think I'm gonna go play some battlefield 3 again tonight.  So keeping it short tonight boys and girls.  Thinking of my next move in life, and I'm thinking it's going to be a glorious move.  And boom goes the dynamite.

Mondays and its Witchcraft

It's Monday, it's suppose to be Grind my Gears...blah blah blah.  Yeah, it's not, but I do know one thing.  It is Monday, and as I sit here listening to Frank Sinatra on my record player, I'm thinking where am I going to be in the next 7 or 8 months from now.  Will I be planning my trip to Italy, or will it be Japan.  Lots of good things I guess.  I think in the pass 36 hours I have finally decided.  Lets hold on that European dream trip, and head to the land of the rising sun.  That's right, this year I'm going to Japan.  It's the only logical explanation really.  Well to me it is.  I really didn't want to go to Italy without CL, so this was the best logic.  Well, now that that is explained, there has been something on my mind lately.

Quitting my job and becoming an auctioneer at storage facilities.  Okay okay, seriously that's not going to happen, but man it would  be pretty cool to do something like that.  Who would've thought that there are jobs out there that are like that.  No me, but I'm definitely down with that.  It be cool if they had a job out there where you would test out hotels.  How epic of a job would that be?  Or evening being a sommelier or beer taster.  I want that job.  How do we apply for those types of jobs?  After doing a little research, a degree in hospitality probably would've helped.  Once again, not choosing the correct major is killing me.  Dang it.

Anywhoo, lots of good things are coming up.  Beerfest, Kina concert, St. Patty's day, and many many more to even mention.  I'm getting to that exciting portion in my life again.  Man, there is just so much for me to do and want to do.  Lately, I've been playing with my record player.  I love this thing, something about it, the static-y, cracking sound.  It just sounds right for some songs.  Sometimes it's what makes music sounds right.

You know things have been going well.  I don't know, everyone is doing the right thing, living life, and getting things set up.  I kinda feel we're all at that age.  This is the first time this year.  It's different this year you know.  So as I sit here watching the Sixers beat up on the Magic, it's seems this year is a year of everyone doing their own thing.  I guess I should've expected it right.  Me and Dave had this conversation before, and guess it's just coming to fruition now.  Hahaha, I can't believe how true our conversation came to light.  But that's life for you, and I'm pretty excited about it for everyone.  I guess I say it now more often, after watching Neel's service today.  I realize it's just way too short, this thing we call life.

I guess, cause it is Monday, but you know what really grinds my gears, why do people have to push their religion on me?  I'm a Buddhist, I don't blast it out there for everyone to hear or know, but just because I am, doesn't mean I should be told that I'm not going to see my friends when I pass.  I believe in the afterlife, I believe in reincarnation, so death to me is death.  Am I suppose to be punished because I'm not a believer of Jesus Christ and God.  *Sigh*

Live life people, it's short, and anything can happen.  Be good, and much love folks.

Happyness

So what is the meaning of happiness?  Is it money, fame, cars, women?  I don't know know, I don't have the answers to it all.  However, I wanna believe it is the goals that we set out and achieve for ourselves in life.  Isn't it the purpose of our lives to have some sort of purpose?  Or am I looking at a too big of a goal that I'm just going to disappoint myself in life?  Is what Dave and Jay say is true?  Am I suppose to be a 99%?  Am I suppose to not try to become the 1% and make it for me and my family and friends?  I don't get it, one week I have a conversation and I want to make a difference, and the next I'm thinking maybe I can't even make a difference.  Seriously, my brain hurts.

I've always wanted more in life, I've seen what others had received, and complained that I've worked my ass off, and still have not received any sort of rewards for it.  I know I know...you shouldn't expect handouts.  And I'm not.  However it be nice to just receive some sort of sign that I'm going to be okay.  That I'll make it.  Maybe I'm just bitching, and I know I am, but it's what's on my mind, so that's what I'm doing for right now.

The conclusion of this, is that I'm very happy at the moment, I'm trying not to think too much of the future, and by frankly, I'm quite happy with the way things are now.  Life is good, I'm looking forward to my next European vacation, I'm looking forward for possibly a new job.  Looking forward to the unknown.  That's what I'm looking forward to.  I don't want to be bogged down by the thought of this unknown picture that I don't see as of yet.  This unknown purpose in life.  I guess, when the time comes and the purpose will be in front of me, I will know what to do for my decisions.  However until then...I'll keep searching for something that isn't there as of yet.  Something is bound to come, and I'm going to find it.  I don't know what "it" is.  However you know how things work, they just do.

So yesterday was guys weekend, and it was a blast yesterday.  Hanging with the boys, playing games, going to lunch and dinner, and gambling a little bit.  What made it even better, was finally learning how to play roulette a bit, and finally winning in AC again.  Life was good...very good.  The more I hangout with the boys, the more I feel like everything is okay.  I'm glad my friends are like family.  They treat you with the most respect, they crack jokes, and they love you.  I'm blessed.  I'm blessed to have family and friends that love me.  AAAHHHhhh...jazzy.

Dear 16 Year Old Self

The following blog is a letter to my 16 year old self...let the rules of the butterfly effect not be part of this.

Dear 16 Year Old Self,

This is a letter to you, to let you realize that there will be bumpy times ahead, and to also let you know, there are many, many, many great times ahead.  The good will definitely out weigh the bad.  You may not like what you hear, and you may not enjoy what you think is lecture.  However, this will all benefit you in the future.  You should learn from it, and take the experiences that I have learned to heart.  You may think I'm just an old square right now as you're reading this, but trust me.  I have the experience, and I know what is ahead.

So let's begin, 16 year old self, in a couple of years, you will be telling yourself, "Omg, time has flew by, I'm going to college already, and these last four years were amazing."  Trust me you will be saying this, this is one of the many conversations you will have on the bus with Jay.  Oh and by the way young self, Omg = oh my god.  Enjoy high school, you are right, it will be the time of your life.  You will gain so many friends and experiences.  You will forever have the memories of the greatest time of your life.  It is a blast, and you will understand when college starts.  I understand you are bitching and moaning right now, because you are stuck in a restaurant, but trust me, that restaurant is worth it.  By frankly when you get older, you're going to want to go back in.  It may one day be your passion in life.  So cherish what you have, don't take any of it for granted, those experiences that you have now, are going to be life experiences and work ethics that you will forever carry with you when you will be out in the real world.  The friends you have are all very special at this age.  They all think you are great, believe in them, you are a pretty nice kid.  However pay special attention to a few of them.  They will break your balls in the future because they think you were a big shot, however keep reminding them, you are nothing without them.  Especially David W. Haberle, he is one of your greatest friends in the future.  You think you are cool with him now, playing chess and other stuff in study hall.  But he is one of your best friends in the future, you will die for that kid if you had to, and I know for a fact that he would do the same for you.  He will join the Tripod, to create a table that will stand strong.  I would mention DeMaria and Jay, but you know in your heart, you will not separate easily from those two goof balls, and you will be right.

Enjoy college 16 year old self.  It is more of a blast than you think.  Study more, drink less, party less.  Scratch that last part, try to do both.  Whether you think the path you are on is wrong or right, you will not know until you get there.  It may seem hard, and you may get bored of it, but stick with what you started with.  It will one day be your greatest strength.  Enjoy each minute of it, you will meet one of your future best friend there as well.  He is a hoot, a kid from Cherry Hill, you will meet him in a marketing class possibly.  You will talk about things, and think that he really is a great guy and good friend.  You may get competitive with him in marketing, but that's how he is.  He's competitive.  George Henehan will become the umbrella in the middle of the table that has been created.  You will stand strong, and Georgie will protect us when we need him most.  He is strong willed, and the most hilarious drunk that you will meet, you don't know it, but George will play an important role in your life.  He is good people, Beyonce told me so.

Love.  Do not fall for the t.v. and movie theater love story.  Love is nothing like that, you probably watched, "Can't Hardly Wait," for the umpteenth time by now.  Love is nothing like that.  Quite frankly, it's more like, "500 Days of Summer."  You will meet many women in your life 16 year old self.  You don't think you're a stud machine, and guess what? You aren't.  However you are a gentleman to the very end and chivalry isn't dead.  Remember you have 3 sisters, treat them with respect.  Treat all women with respect.  There will be a period when you will get your heart broken.  It is the tragedies in life.  It will hurt, and it will continue to hurt, and it will be a while till you feel better.  You will feel jaded towards women, and you will be with women you have no love towards.  It is just the way it is young self.  You will not believe in love, you will think getting some is the answer, you will think it's just easy to just do what you need to do and leave.  You will break hearts, and you will not love.  You will drink.  You will drink until you feel no pain.  You will drink more alcohol than your liver can handle, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel, you will get over it.  Believe me, you will.  If you can learn one thing from me, learn that the answers in life are not at the bottom of a bottle of scotch.  It will all be a distant memory, and who knows, you may even be able to go back and be friends with her again.  There will be other women who will come to you in life, and there will be one who you will love.  She will remind you that love is possible again.  She will break a piece of the ice that surrounds your heart, and your heart will be able to start beating again.  Even if you may not talk to her for a while, you will.  Don't let such a precious friend go.  She is too kindhearted to be treated that way.  She was a friend, treat her as one.  Let it go, let it all go.  It's not worth it.  You will find happiness, it just won't be handed to you.  Earn it.

16 year old self, you may not believe it when I tell you this, but believe it.  You will travel, you will travel the world.  Learn from it, the Italian course that you are taking now.  Keep learning, if you can keep learning, you will use it.  You will go to Amsterdam, Italy, and hopefully Japan, a new spot every year.  You will learn so much and realize, there is bigger piece of the world out there.  Your problems will be petty, and you will realize life is way to short to even have problems like the ones you will have.  Do as much traveling as you can.  You will not regret it.  You will come across things in life, and realize that you are very insignificant.  All the trips that Ching Ping tells you about, they are important.  Learn from her.  CP is highly intelligent.  She knows more than you think.  She is wise beyond her years.  She knows more than you will ever realize, and traveling is part of that.

Family, 16 year old self, family is very important.  They will be the ones to always take care of you.  Do not take them for granted.  Remember that.  CP will give you more life experience than you can ever imagine.  She seems like a know it all, but that's because she does know a lot.  Ching L. and Ching T. will be there to take care of you.  No matter how much a pain in the ass they can be sometimes, they mean well.  Listen to them.  They are your big sisters for a reason, and lastly Wei Tak.  He's smart, very smart, you may fight with him now at the age you are at, but when you are older, Wei Tak will be one of your best friends, scratch that, he will be your big brother that he is suppose to be.  And he loves you more than you can imagine.  Follow him, he has big dreams and a big future.  Whether you work with him or not, believe in him.  He can do it.

16 year old Wei, believe in yourself.  If you think you can play the guitar.  Don't dawdle, start soon.  Cause if not, in 10 years you will anyway.  You're going to take classes and have a pretty awesome teacher.  Follow your heart young Wei.  Don't get discourage, learn to keep on fighting.  You're going to want to quit, but you have more to gain if you don't.  Life is good, and you are the one that has to believe in that.

16 year old me.  If you are reading this, you shall be coming to the end of this letter, here are a few bonus tips.  Go to California, Mission Viejo to be exact, and find a girl by the name of Kina Grannis, tell her that she's amazing, and that she's going to be famous one day.  Tell her, that she should keep singing, and sing so that everyone can hear her.  See if she will fall in love with you, because by frankly future Wei, me, would love you.  Seriously, she will be your inspiration in life, you will pick up a guitar because of her, you will travel the world to see her in concert, and her music will inspire you.  Remember that.  Buy Apple stocks NOW!!!  Seriously, they probably just came out with a colorful iMac at around your time.  Buy their stocks now, you will be freaking loaded.  They have so much stuff coming out in the near future, it will be totally worth it if you do.  Honestly, I'm typing on a Mac as I write this to you.  Bet on the Phillies 16 year old self, they will be great.  Lastly 16 year old self, life is good, life is grand even.  There may be times when you don't think so, but remember this you only have one life.  Take full advantage of it.  You have family and friends that love you.  Carpe Diem really means more than you think.  Live life to the fullest, do things you would never usually do.  You only get one of these 16 year old self.  Live it.

Sincerely,
27 year old You, Wei Kwok    

Surprise!!

I'm 27 today.  I've traveled to the other side of the world, I've met a ton of people, and I am fortunate enough to be surrounded by wonderful group of people that I can call my family and friends.  I've have lived and learned the many hardships of life.  I've worked at a young age, struggled through losing friends, and struggled with losing who I thought were people I truly loved.  However in the end, all of this doesn't matter.  What I learned most is that struggling and hardships build character.  I would like to say I as a man, have a lot of character.  I am a man who believes in loyalty, the goodness in peoples heart, the ability to be able to sacrifice, the ability to know when to let go.  I would never call myself a quitter, I would rather lose a limb before giving up.  However, I also know 27 years is still not knowledgable enough.  I don't care how old you are or whatever age the person reading this is.  Life is forever a learning experience.  You will learn till the day you die.  I will fully acknowledge right now, I do not have enough life experience to say I know everything.  That's why I love living.  It is forever a class, a roller coaster, and a place where I will feel all emotions.  I am me, and I will accept that.  If you haven't gone out there to achieve what you wished for yet, you aren't living.  I know it may be difficult for some.  However if you don't try that is the first steps towards failure.  The Great One once said, "You miss 100 percent of the shots you don't take."  I hope to look back on this blog next year and say, "Wei you are fucking right."  I will never know what the future will hold.  But I am damn sure I'm ready to tackle it.

Things I miss, friendships that should have never gone away.  Some were my fault, others not so much so. Even still, sometimes I miss fucking up on things.  Time machines would be epic at those times.  I'm still the hopeless romantic.  Even after all these years.  I will dream for the stars.  I still haven't picked the right one yet.  Today on the 27th year of my life.  I will continue to grow and learn.

So enough of that.  I'm 27, and I'm going to get fucked up tonight.  I will drink my fair share of alcohol and get stupid.  I will drink until I don't feel feelings anymore.  Cause that's what I do.  I drink to not feel anything.  That's just how I roll.

The Final Evening

To all of you that have been following this blog for some time now, thank you.  Thank you for being a part of this journey I call life.  Thank you for thinking this blog has been somewhat interesting, and thank you for reading it, and giving me complete sanity throughout this trip.  I've done so many things in the past week, and I would like to say everything has been a learning experience.  I don't know what or where I'll be in he next few days, weeks, months, and even years.  I just know that I am hoping to head in a better direction.  That I am heading towards something that is new and exciting, that I will be there for my friends, and my friends will be there for me.

Now that that is out of the way, lets begin the blog.  Today in Amsterdam, was once again like no other.  I finally went to the Amsterdam Zoo...or the Artis as it is known.  It was breathtaking.  Aside from all the kids running around and screaming, it was just plain old awesome.  Remember going to the zoo the first time as a child?  It was like that for me today.  It had everything that I wanted it to have.  Everything that I needed it to be.  It had it's own aquarium, giraffes, chimpanzees, gorillas, lemurs, reptiles, even a building devoted to entomology, the study of insects.  Yay!!  Anyway, the walk over wasn't so bad.  I didn't get lost, I didn't have to ask anyone for directions...it just ended perfectly.

After my little excursion to the zoo, which turned out to be a very lengthy trip.  I went in search for a Dutch dinner.  So for all you people that have been hating or complaining about why I haven't had Dutch food yet, here you go.  Authentic dutch food the way it's suppose to be.  Right off the bat, I'm going to tell you this right now, dutch food is rich.  Okay, not rich, more hearty than rich.  It doesn't have a ton of creams or silky smooth textural foods.  It has more a meat and potato type vibe.  By no means is this bad.  Just that, it's heavy, and I can only have one meal today.  And well today this would be it.  However, the dish itself was splendid.  The red cabbage type slaw with the steamed carrots, awesome.  Something about the cabbage.  It was savory sweet, they must have steamed/boiled the cabbage in a reduced honey sauce, cause it was great.  I mean really great.  Loved, loved, loved.  As for the meats, there was grilled chicken, a beef stew type side, sausage, and all of this was served under a plate of Dutch mashed potatoes.  I don't know what that consists of, but it was darn good, hella good even.  I wasn't a big fan of the stew though, however it was fork tender, and the meat was falling right off.  Quite delicious, however the wine that was reduced down in it.  Hmm...okay, I wish they would have picked a heavier port I guess...however I'm not the chef so oh well.  And the sausage?  Excellent, I wished that they had given me more than two pieces though.  But no complaints whatsoever.  Oh, and it came with some pretty awesome sides, salad, frittes, and once again the cabbage and carrot combo.  Nice.  See below for some pics.  Once again a meat and potato type dish, however for a country that is constantly rainy and cold out.  I get it.   

Side of potatoes

The most delicious cabbage and carrot side every!

Salad with hollandaise sauces...nice.

Epic platter...quite yummy

All the dishes together...awesome!

Today was the day the way this Amsterdam trip needed to end.  Perfectly, and it did.  Now as I sit in my room, preparing for bed.  I'm typing this knowing what I'm coming back to.  And the thought of leaving Amsterdam saddens me.  My brother is right, I need out of Jersey.  I need out of the environment.  I need change.  I don't know whether it'll be good or bad.  I just need it.

If I've learned anything from Amsterdam it's this.  People are free here.  There are no worries.  What they worry about can be thrown out the window.  And that's it.  They know that nothing is ever serious and that life is always good.  No matter what?  Do we as Americans realize this?  Do we know that life is good?  Or are we constantly worrying about money, food, love, and everything in between?  Be true and good to yourself people.  Life is good, life will alway be good.  No matter what is missing, you'll find that thing sooner or later.  Sometimes, you'll find it when you aren't expecting it.  That's how that is suppose to work. I will always remember and realize this.  Thank you Amsterdam...thank you Europe, thank you Kina...everything is falling into place?  I hope.  I believe so.  It has to.

"Amsterdam is beautiful, Amsterdam is like Disneyland, all these buildings and everything.  It's just like Disneyland...but this is real life for you." - Kina Grannis

Amsterdam is just like Disneyland...for adults.  Go out there and explore it.  It's amazing.

Another Week...

Well it's Friday night...I probably should be heading towards AC to celebrate Dan's 21st.  However my heart isn't really in it, and I am heading to Europe on Wednesday.  So I decided, this will be my packing/getting things ready weekend.  I don't know, I guess I'm finally getting excited that this is happening.  Not really...well a little I guess.  Seriously?  I'm actually grateful of this getaway.  For a little bit, I'm going to forget everything and finally be on vacation.  No staycation, a real vacation.  Honestly, I don't know what to expect, and by frankly, I don't care.  I want to have a blasty blast and that is what's going to happen.

Oh so let's throw this in here, I have been to a few dealerships this week.  I hate it, I hate dealing with car salesmen, and I hate the whole buying process.  The games we have to play to get a good deal.  I extremely hate the fact I have to be a douchebag to a guy that is trying to make a living selling vehicles.  Now I know what you're thinking, "Wei, you're always a douchebag."  And technically yes, that is correct, but I have to add 10x's more to that doucheyness...ugh...it just sucks.  Anyway my sis is getting a car, she looked at Hyundais today, I think tomorrow it will be back to Hondas.  Honestly, I love my Honda, but I'm beginning to think all cars are just a p.i.t.a. (pain in the ass).  Anyway, so that's the game plan.

I've been trying to keep things on a lighter note lately.  I don't know though if I'm doing such a great job though.  Ever been in a slump, and feel like you just can't get out of it.  Yeah, I'm in one of those.  Lately I've been having these awfully weird dreams, and it's the same thing over and over and over again.  Not good really.  I can't say it's a nightmare, cause It's about good people, it's just that even though I'm beginning to dream about something else, it reverts back to that dream again.  This has to be bad right?  Hmm...I think I'm going to have to get a book on that.  Either that, or I'm going to have to start thinking about other things.  I think I'll pick up my guitar after this post, get my mind off of things.  Paul taught me a killer chord, and I really want to practice playing it before my trip.  So it has come to this on a Friday night...I think I'm in love with it.  I guess it's not bad to keep to myself every once in a while.  By frankly, I quite enjoy it.  It's very soothing and relaxing, however I do miss Dave, George, Ant, and Jay.  I can't wait till we are all together again, maybe a guys night out.  That would be quite epic actually, maybe for my birthday.  ^___^

So I think I'm going to end on a positive note tonight, I read this ad today, and since I was in a hurry, I tried taking a picture of it.  Didn't come out great, however I do have the verbiage to it.  And here it is...

This is your life. Do what you love, and do it often. If you don't like something, change it. If you don't like your job, quit. If you don't have enough time, stop watching T.V. If you are looking for the love of your life, stop; they will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love. Stop over analyzing, all emotions are beautiful. When you eat, appreciate every last bite. Life is simple. Open your mind, arms, and heart to new things and people, we are united in our differences. Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them. Travel often; getting lost will help you find yourself. Some opportunities only come once, seize them. Life is about the people you meet, and the things you create with them so go out and start creating. LIFE IS SHORT. LIVE YOUR DREAM AND SHARE YOUR PASSION.

I don't know where the above is from, but I loved every word of it.  Lately I have become very cynical, jaded, and a lot of other bad words.  However, I still believe there is good to everything, and every situation.  I want to believe things happen for a reason, if they were meant to be, well they were meant to be.  Even though I want a different answer, I will never push it, I will never negate what is there, however I feel if you really care about something, if you got to let it go for a little, you have to let it go, and if it comes back, then it will.

Lately I have been considering going to a medium with Jay.  I've finally realized though, I don't think I want to go anymore.  Life is what you make, why do I want to know my life's path?  I think I want to be surprised along the way, I want to hit every bump and pot hole, I want to feel pain, and go through anguish.  I want to enjoy love, and relish in it.  I want it all.  I want to run the gamut of emotions...I want to live it all.  That's what I want.  I think if I go to a medium, I'll be cheating myself the surprise.  So medium is off, whatever happens from this point on, it will just happen, and I'll like it.  Good and the bad, that's how that go.  ^___^

Tonight I leave a video, of course it's Kina...and David Choi, both epic singers.  Enjoy.

Freakin Sweet!

So you know what's epic?  My friends.  I had an amazing evening last night with my best friend Jay, and well tonight was capped off with an evening with the lovely Ashley and Kate.  Both of these girls hold a dear dear place in my heart.  Well anywhoo, the evenings went without a hitch.  Me and Jay went to the Phils game yesterday, and it was amazing.  Oswalt looked great out there, and our Phils swept the Braves for the fitrst time this year.  Felt good, it's September, leading into the playoffs pretty soon and we're still taking names, me likey.  Only thing bad, we didn't commit and we should have.  We watched the Phils struggle for 8 solid innings, so to listen to them comeback and win was very disheartening to me, since I should have been there to see it live.  Oh well...C'est la vie.

Today was a struggle again, I feel like I'm in a rut and I should be able to handle myself better.  Don't know what it is (I kinda do).  However, I know I want out of it.  To say the least tonight was the night I needed.  I felt so much better tonight, dinner with Ashley and Kate.  These two girls are so awesome, I cannot sing their praises much more, it's going to get sickening.  Well dinner at Bertucci's was extremely nice, and to be able to talk and shoot the sh*t, dreamy.  What can I say, I'm a sucker for talk about work, the past, sex, the future, and everything in between.  It's quite loverly really.

Dinner was nice, the Taste of Bertucci's, haha, I feel like an americanos, but still quite tasty.  Lately I've been thinking where I am heading down this path I am on.  I would surely like to clear it up and find out.  I haven't really asked for much in my life, but If you're up there, and you know who you are.  Save me Super-Man.

Well, it has been an extremely long day, honestly week.  I leave this evening with an amazing song from and amazing woman.  Kina Grannis.