Last Words

Been thinking about this again...It's a weird and a touchy subject.  Lets be honest, death is not a fun topic to discuss.  However, it's not really death that I wish to speak of, more so the last few words that you say.  I never really thought what my last words would be.  In hindsight this is kind of depressing.   However sometimes you got to get through the depressing stuff to actually see what you're really missing.

Last year around this time, my dad had a scare with stroke.  That was an extremely scary time.  He had an issue with his eye, his blood pressure was through the roof, and all in all it was an extremely scary and dire situation.  My dad is the strong silent type, and he never really says much.  However, after the scare, it was good to hear him speak and say some encouraging things.  I'm glad now that my dad is better, and I really can't say anything bad.  He still needs to watch his diet, but he's doing well.

Like I said, my dad is not one to say a lot, however I'm glad I know enough about my father that I know what is thoughts were.  However, no last words were given to me by him.  Instead I got a gentle squeeze that made me realize that everything will be okay.  It's a scary thing to go through, but definitely a great feeling once you're out of it.

I was thinking, maybe my last few words would be, love you guys...and well, now I gotta drop a deuce.

Doode, this girl is only 16...crazy, and I can't stop listening to this song.  Dammit.

New Beginning, New Drinks, New Everything

Well, not new everything.  Kinda new...I kinda want to take a loan out and just start a grease truck.  Maybe a fancy one, maybe something.  I don't know.  I want a new something.  This thing I call a job is not a career.  It's just a means to an end at the moment.  I just trying to find my way I guess.  There's more to this right...tell me there's more to this.

So last words.  I've been thinking about this for a while.  Lets say you weren't here tomorrow, what would you tell your love ones?  What would be your last words to them?  I don't know, I figure I would say something great and dramatic, and something epic.  However, what if it wasn't?  Would I still seem like the dreamer, the believer, the life seeker?  I want to be this philosophical mumbo jumbo guy, however I feel like I'm going to be the guy that ends up saying stuff like, "I can't believe I ate the whole thing."  Shit like that right?

Lot of family coming to visit today.  I like that.  I've been having this contemplated thought on my mind.  Thinking last year things had to change, and again this year I'm seeking that same change, I don't know where I'm head, I feel like i'm on this dark and snowy road, and I can't see anything in front of me.  However I know I gotta keep peering into that Snowy dark road with my headlights on.  There's something on that other end of that tunnel.  There's something right?  There has to be.

Well I've been listening to a ton of Garfunkel and Oates lately.  They are pretty fucking hilarious.  Take a listen.