Ooo...Scary

And it begins, the epic journey to Amsterdam.  I get to leave it all behind.  Ahh...no work, no stress, no worries, everything is gravy.  As I sit and wait for my flight, I can't help but wonder what is in store.  Woo hoo...no seriously, I'm sitting here people watching, and the thing is this.  I'm totally frightened at the idea of me running amok in a city I've never been in, a city of sin that's 10x's worst than Vegas.  I'm going to be a wreck.  Hahaha...no no, I won't I swear I'm going to be the best kid that I can be.  You know what would be epic though, a beer before the flight.  Yeah, that's what I want, I think that's what I will do...brb

I'm thinking I'm going to have some sort of Anthony Bourdain epiphany, I wish I can do this as a living, travel, not alone, maybe with a companion of some sort...rambling, like I always do when I'm nervous.  Haha, that's all I really have folks for today, my brain is running 100 miles a minute.  And honestly, writing is not going to be my best today.  Stay well everyone, and watch for a better blog tomorrow.  By the time I land it'll be about 3:00 a.m. here in the states, but for me 8:00 a.m.  So I know I'm going to be running thin tomorrow, however there will be something up as I wait for Jason.  Once again enjoy the week everyone, it's going to be a hell of a week for me.

Oh, and I guess I've been dying to post this song for a little bit, don't worry folks, I'll get out all the crappy sappy songs out of the way soon.  It's just how I feel lately, that's all.  

Well, here's the thing, I know in the top portion I said I was done, however that was after the fact that I would have 2 doubles of Walker and a Guiness...I'm on vacation, I'm allowed to drink.  Anywhoo...so yeah, I'm a little buzzed, and I'm a little more talkative, that's how I roll.  So there I am sitting at the bar contemplating to myself, why do things happen the way they do...and you know what really grinds my gears?  I have no fucking idea why...shit seriously...do I even have the right to answer?  No, but well you know it's whatever, and I'm just going with it...seriously, fuck it.  I'm just going to let it ride.  I know for a fact tomorrow when I'm re-doing my blog this shit will be different, but for right now, I'm leaving it.  Seriously, I'm going to meet a shit ton of people in Amsterdam.  The first thing I want to do when I get off the plane is scream, "I'm here bitches!!!"  Obviously not smart at all.  No fucking way...but who knows, i'll get tackled by airport security.  

If, if and buts...

For a little bit now, I have been contemplating on whether I wanted to start a new blog for when I go to Amsterdam.  I look back at some of these entries and realized, they probably should have just gone into my regular journal or some sort of LiveJournal.  Look, I know some of you who are reading this are thinking, what a whiny bitch...and you know what?  Yeah, I am.  I also know that life sucks, and it's hard.  So you know what...it is what it is, and if it's there, then let it be there, I don't really care anymore really.  Let's move on with that notion.  

So today, I just couldn't do it, I had to take a half day from work, and the first place I thought of was the "Coffee Works," in Voorhees.  It's a quiet little place, and I immensely enjoy the lattes here.  It's quite delicious.  I love the decor, more of a newer style coffee shop, with food and coffee.  It's nice just sitting here people watching, and enjoying Adele's, "Rumor Has It," in the background.  As my mind wanders, and I continue to type, I wonder if this was the right move today.  And as I take another sip of my latte, yes, it was.  I need to get everything off my mind, lets be honest though, an afternoon of freedom will not do it at all, however I'm loving every moment of it.  I wish there was a live band/open mic now.  I would love to hear some live music.  That would be awesome.  Did, I mention there is a live stage here?  I hope I get good enough one day to play a song here.  Maybe "Just Fine," from G-Love.  Right now that song is playing, and you know what?  I love that song, it has a lot of meaning right now in my life.  I wish I could just do this all day, I wish I could just sit and enjoy the scenery, the people, the music, and the typing...if, if, if.  However, If, ifs and buts were candy and nuts...oh what a party we would have.  Bringing back old school Wjoner.  I forgot how to spell his name, I'm pretty sure it is it.

In 2 weeks time, I will be on a plane, and I will try to forget all of this.  I hope when I'm over there, I will get to visit more coffee shops.  I don't know what it is about these places, they're just magical to me now...god I'm so hipster.  I've been called that many times now...better start planking and owling.  Well I took my last sip of my latte, I kinda want another, but I know I shouldn't.  I wish I didn't have to work anymore.  I need to start being a self-made millionaire.  Oof Fah!

Oh, and the iPod music project, almost done...thank goodness, I finally got to put all my Kina songs on there.  Shout out to Sylvia for sending me an epic rendition of "Message from you Heart."  Amazing, lately I've been listening to a lot of Jamie Cullum.  "I Think I love," is an amazing song, however all his songs are amazing really.  You know what was the most awesome aspect about this music project, I realized how many good songs I have been totally missing.  Wow, I hate you PC, and I love you Mac.  Hahaha...I'm that guy now.  Yes...Justin Long, love you buddy.  Speaking of Justin Long, watched, "Still Waiting..." the other night, not good as, "Waiting."  Just saying.

Oh, so if anyone ever gets a chance, watch this show.  It's called Honey and Clover...amazing show, you will realize how awesome it is when you watch it.

I’d been wondering all this time, whether there’s any meaning to a failed love. Is it something that will disappear, the same as something that never existed. Now I know, there is meaning…there was a meaning…right here.

Oh, and by the way...it's an anime, and I'm a nerd.  Deal with it.