Friday, November 11, 2016

Trump's America

My last post was Friday, January 8, 2016.  A lot has happened since then.  Death's of so many we have loved and cherished.  From David Bowie, Prince, Gene Wilder, and even today Leonard Cohen. It has been one nasty upsetting year, with back to back to back sadness all around.  But that's not the biggest upset that has been on my mind lately.  The biggest disappointment and upset is the fact that we have possibly the biggest misogynist, sexist, racist, homophobic, xenophobe running our country at the moment, and his name is Donald Trump.

And before we start lets get this out of the way.  I in no way, shape or form a bleeding heart liberal.  I don't like the fact that our country is being forced upon to have politically correctness in ever corner of every state.  No by no means am I that.  However I am a strong believe of right and wrong.  And right now things are increasingly wrong.

I honestly believe we live in a sad state of affairs currently at the moment.  From the very beginning of this election year, it was dirty, sleazy, and slimy.  And it wasn't just all the republicans doing.  The liberals had a healthy dose of it as well.  From Clinton's underhanded move to kick Bernie Sanders, to her now known e-mail scandal [which honestly wasn't really that terrible].  However, at the end of the day Trump is now our President and shit has hit the fan.  Whether you like it or not, he is our 45th president.

I've been thinking this, can one man, take all that was good from President Obama, and reverse all of his good that he has done in one fell swoop.  This is the president we have chosen, and well, this is what we have to live with now.  We have a president that said, "Grab them by the Pussy," "We'll build a wall," this is our future, this is our president.

However, lets think about this, how much can this person change, and will he?  It already looks as though he may not repeal the whole Obamacare act.  It looks as though he just may change some things from it, I'm okay with that.  However what about our global warming issues?  Gay rights? Immigration issues, the whole shebang?  Already so much is being done to turn everything, really?  Has a president that pushed us so far ahead, is going to be replaced by a president that is going to set us back by 60 years?  And I get it, for all you Trump supporters out there, I get it, you're a whiny liberal, you lazy millennial what the fuck do you know, so on and so forth.  Maybe I am, maybe I'm not.  I work 50-60 hours a week, I'm a debt negotiator and I help people for a living.  I think that's the most important thing for me.  I help people, is that so wrong?  During a time like this, I just want people to be good to others, I do want unity.  However it's hard to see that, when all I see is people out to get each other.  There has to be a better way.

When I see riots from the liberals, and slandering and hate acts/crimes against minorities, what do I say?  What do I do?  I'm clearly not going to stand for it if some person decide to grab a woman "by the pussy."  I'm going to knock your fucking lights out, that's just going to be my initial reaction.  We just can't allow this.

Here is what I am afraid of, I have a niece, she is almost 2 years old.  By the time the next elections rolls around, she will be almost 6 years old.  How do I explain this to my sweet angel of a niece, who is innocent beyond anything, that she lives in a country that doesn't give two shits about her, and her future.  I'm afraid that she will not have a future in this country that I love the most.  My sister asked me today, should we move to Canada?  I told her, absolutely not, I'm not Canadian, I'm an American. I love this country more than anyone else.  I'm a gun toting, red meat eating American.  I watch my sports drink my scotch and call it a day.  I have no conceptions at all of moving.  This country is my home.

I posted the following on Facebook the other day after the election: "Woke up this morning thinking of posting something witty and clever like, "Yay, we can now all be friends again!" But maybe it's not time for that. What's done is done, and we have 4 years of Trump. Whether you like it or not it's happening. What we can do is just try to be kinder to each other. I honestly don't use social media as much as I do during the political season due to all the vitriol that is flung at each other. So this is me, being as pragmatic as I can...let's just stop being dicks towards each other, and just get through these next 4 years together. For my friends that are freaking out and are scared shitless, I feel your pain, I'm also scared shitless. Still trying to believe there is humanity in people. Love you guys, no matter what side of the fence you sit on."

It's time to listen people.  I think we are in the conundrum that we are in because a man took advantages of the fear and despair that a large portion of our country is in.  Maybe Trump is the change that the American people need to see.  Maybe this is the for the best, whether it be a debacle or train wreck, or maybe, just maybe a blessing in disguise.  I don't know where the future is taking us, I honestly don't know if I like it or not either.  Someone on Facebook wrote, it's now time to nut up or shut up, explain to me why you're afraid that Trump is going to be president.  I had to think about that for a bit, I think the main reason I'm afraid, is that it brings hate.  Hate from both sides, and  for some odd reason it's okay to have this hate.  I doubt I'm going to write another post like this about politics again.  By frankly I'm not witty enough or smart enough.  However the next time I do write one, I pray that good has happen and that good is being done.  Best of luck Mr. Trump.  Please make the changes that you said you would, and please don't ruin the lives of so many people that have acquired their recent freedoms.


Friday, January 8, 2016

Girl of My Dreams

The last time I wrote in this thing it was on August 15, 2015.  Figure I better write something in this thing for 2016.  First recap of 2015 shall we?  2015 started off with me being 30, unemployed, and not having a clue what I was doing with my life.  Then along came a new apple of my eye, little Rylee Grace Kwok.  A few weeks later my brother was going through a pretty harsh divorce and his world was turned upside down.  I do know I stepped in, and nanny and did what I could to take care of this new little one in my world.  I'm glad I was unemployed.  I learned a lot on being a dad, and taking care of a child.  Besides Rylee, there were a few more changes, I watched one of my other best friend get engaged, I helped look at rocks and ring sets and I feel I even know a little more about rings than I could ever possibly imagine.  Congrats to him and his beautiful fiancĂ© Trish.  

This will lead to a great segway into my main portion of my blog here.  Have you ever met the woman of your dreams before?  If you have, I have to say congratulations.  I'm really happy for you.  I'm beginning to thing I haven't yet.  However, I have now seen her, in my dreams.  I've literally seen the woman of my dreams last night...in my dreams.  What I really hate about it though, is that my dream was so vivid, and I was so in love with this pretend woman, that I am now writing about it.  However, throughout the entire time of my dream, I just knew it was a dream, and it just sucks now.  Cause I honestly did not want to wake up after I was having this dream.  

By the way, this dream consisted of meeting this wonderfully beautiful, kind, and just purely angelic woman, and then us getting married.  We had this elaborate wedding, and it was just filled with colors.  Flowers of all colors, paintings of all different colors, it was just bright and amazing.  All my friends and family were there, and it was just amazing.  

Now after all this, I'm trying to figure out what does it all mean.  What does in all hell does this mean?  Well I looked it up with my trusty Google, and most of the meaning consist like this.  "If you dream of own wedding, at which you are a groom or a bride, it means that you should be ready to stunning success. Perhaps some undertaking will be widely known and will become very popular."

This has got me thinking, it means I'm in for stunning success...at my new job?  Or a new job to come. I don't want to think about it too much.  But this makes me pretty happy.  It has been an exciting year, I'm ready for change.  I'm ready for the big move to NYC, I'm ready for the life altering  job, I'm ready for someone new and exciting to enter my life.  

I guess me at this old age just wants to settle down and find someone nice as well.  I'm not sure what made me happier, the journey I had with this girl in my dream, or the actual wedding itself.  All in all, I really do think it's a sign, and I'm hoping these dream dictionaries are right, and it's a sign of good things to come.